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This makes me feel even more worthless and life even more empty

I wish I had ended everything ten years ago. Actually no, I didn’t want it all to end then. What I really want is to have ended every fifteen years ago. Come to think of it, I wish that I had never been born at all. Life is not worth living.

Why does this make me want to end myself even more?

a year ago, when i was 13 years old, i was in the worst place i have ever been in and probably will ever have been in. i had no friends, i didnt think my family cared about me, i was homeschooled because the bullying from where i was going to school got so bad, my boyfriend who turned out to be abusive yet who i was convinced was my forever had broken up with me and i thought this was the end for me and i wasnt worthy of love. i woke up at noon everyday and locked myself in my room for hours on end with no contact of anyone. i would cut myself almost everyday and i felt the only way i could be beautiful is with a full face of makeup on or through my “boyfriend”. i had a bottle mixed with a bunch of pain meds planning to use them for suicide if it didnt get better. i resorted to drugs and achohol aswell and just vegged to escape the pain of everyday life. Its been a year since then, im 14 now. i graduated middle school and im moving on to high school, im clean from drugs and achohol + self harm, i have wonderful friends and a new wonderful guy in my life, i know im worthy of love and i have unique beauty, i appreciate every minute of everyday, i make songs and art, i got help and i still go to therapy to work on myself, i repaired my relationship with my family i love spending time with them and i realize they do love me very much. im going to camp in a week with some of my best friends and im going to europe and the UK and get to explore the world soon as well. it does get better. you will experience so much joy if you just hold on. i aswell have fully given my life to christ and realized he will never put me through something i cant handle. you may be in your cacoon now. but you will blossom into a beautiful butterfly!! 🦋

People might miss me when I'm gone, but, frankly, I don't care.

"The world isn't going anywhere." Well, I wish it would.

the true reason to live is the grind💪

You Will have sex...... hahaha yea right 😂

wes anderson vibes

thankyou.

delicious food i haven eaten yet..thats definitely a valid reason to live ngl

8 years later, fuck you this video will outlive us all pointless existence

Bullshit

I was 14 when I first watched this - now I’m 21 so I feel like I have some sort of a guide - thank you to early 20s you for making these videos about adulthood

Ah yes even when my parents always say shit on me

cap

Years passing by, and I still rewatching this video for the million time

I was talking about suicide. I struggle with depression n today my mom told me to finally do it since I talked about it so much in the past..

It's crazy how I'm seeing this now at 22, I was just now saying to myself how rarely I meet people who are 22

Why am i crying more

Man fuck this

One day good days will come, but before it comes probably I'll be dead

as for now, i don't want to kill myself but i hope death come to me

& now you're married🥹 the biggest congratulations ♥️

They’re married!!!!! 💍🫶

Thank you

This is funny

Watching this after all the time has past. 9 years ago I was 12 now I’m 21 and have never forgotten this video. Congratulations on you marriage. You did it, you made it.

the way this was put into my recommended on your wedding day is so crazy

took my nearly an hour this evening to find this video again with different keywords: "summer on film", "italy on film", "cinematic youtuber who uploads once a year". such a beautiful frames and audio. will cite this as one of my inspiration to start the journey, in case i get interviewed 😂

BULLSHIT. Maybe will work for YOUNG people, who just have a shit life, but certainly NOT, if you waited a long life time of hell. Fuckinx accept it, do not sugarcoat it, there lives simply not worth it. Another fucking good for nothing bullshit.

"Life is always worth it" You can say that because you've got privileges. You have food, people that support you, money, opportunities. So. F*ck. You.

I will admit it: I've been terminally online for almost all of my life being raised by the internet and thats completely turned my direction for me. Sure, I can be aware of this and understand the consequences I will recieve for what my younger self has decided to go for, yet from what it seems like, older people have completely given up on my generation. Despite with what I do, I will have to grow up with the fact that I have contributed to the downfall of society and now hold 100% accountability for it. My entire life will reflect off of my digital footprint from when I was a little kid due to the modern age and my life will furthermore lack the requirements needed to get a college degree, a job, and to earn mosts respect. I know the world will most definitely end very soon due to the rapid growth of sea level, population, war, and overall evolution, which will lead to a flatline that can only decline from there. Now heres my question: I will have no sort of significance with my life, and death, so what do my feelings matter to others if it only impacts them negatively? I know there is no point to life other to be an organism and die, serving as only a mere statistic, but I want to acknowledge others feelings and understand them too. I want to have these special things like friends in life especially when I will be left with no family, but with this reputation I've recieved from the real world and on the internet (which is ultimately how people communicate nowadays love it or hate it) theres no way I will be happy for these last decades the Earth has. I feel as if I'm not even supposed to be here in the first place almost even, for example I have ADHD which is a genetic mutation, also commonly associated and paired with the delusional Gen-Z stereotype that everyone seems to blame the decline of society on, and I feel as if genetic mutations are meant to kill something, and these mutations just so happened to make it out through all disasters and spread throughout our kind like nothing. Really I'm not supposed to be alive but what a shame I guess, just bad luck that I was born with such vulnerabilities. Again, with that being said, my overall use and appliance to this world will not make much of an impact, so if it all just ended the way I'm pretty sure 90% of the elder generations would prefer it then so be it. If life is unfair for everyone, then what if I just didn't live it? I hope I can get an answer from this because I just want a passive response instead of some passive aggressive read of someone shaming me for not reckoning this or that or whatever. I just want to care for people because I want to be nice and understanding but if I can't manage then ultimately I've failed and served nothing to the table, and should just leave this world as a favor.

Thank you very much I’m now a bit better knowing there are reason in this bull shitting life to live I can’t say what’s gonna happen but I will leave this comment and when I’m better I will come to see it only if I’m better thank you

I wish I had someone

This video has helped me hold on. Several times. Thank you

My heart ached everyday for years.. i cant take it anymore

<3 rhank you

İ Still have mine. We miss you will . We waiting for your next video 🥹

When you have everything but everyone around you parents siblings aunt uncle teachers classmates etc hurt you poison you with their words and abuse and none cares Abu your mental That is the moment you break and question your existence

Screw dis im just gonna die and shit

Who searched for this?

Прошу, пожалуйста, помогите, на помощь, ничто не помогает мне почувствовать себя лучше

woke up from self induced heart pain from a years of eating junk food while being diabetics on a Sunday because I am scared of the pain of "unaliving" myself. on sunday afternoon watching this type of videos. Life is fun. :)

I really wanna km$, someone please stop me, someone please say something to make me change my mind please

I wish it had been more helpful.

"You will cry, fart tears" I had to rewatch that three times to understand he was saying euphoric tears lol I giggled

what utter cliche bs